The TRUTH hurts. a lot.

When you start to trust again, you realize that you’ve been so damned  not to trust for a very long time. But when that trust gets broken and you learn the truth it hurts and you remember the reason why you’ve been keeping that trust within yourself, why you keep yourself from loving someone too much. I used to say truth sets everything right,  honestly I barely tell a lie when it only concerns me, because I believe that that’s where evil starts to creep your soul and eat you up. Now I learn that along with that comes the pain of knowing that someone you love so much has taken advantage of that trust and kept you a fool longer than you imagined. What’s worst is that the truth didn’t come from the horse’s mouth but from his friend. I’m confused, am I not good enough for him or for anyone I love? Now I’m doubting that my friends are telling me the truth, because they always say that the person I would love is gonna be lucky to have me. no one appreciates the small stuff I do for them, why do I have to feel this pain? Is this a curse that I have to handle? that no one would take me seriously because I’m such a crybaby and emo girl with a lot of stuff going on her mind.  The pain I feel is too much to be described, no words can say how much pain, anger, sadness and mistrust I feel right now. Truth is always good but one has to be prepared for the agony it brings for with it comes the reality that you’re not good enough.