God’s Gift..

God’s gift

If it’s really what they call it
Then maybe it’s true
Coz this happiness I’m feeling right now
Is chasing away my despair

Were have you been all my life
Were have you been when I was sad
We both know you are the only one
That can mend my Broken heart

I like the way you smile
The way you make me laugh
I like the way you wake me up
Before the morning light
And when you do it makes me grin
Coz loving you makes me too good to be true

Is this a dream or reality
I’m like living in a fantasy
We are both just simple humans
Livin’ in my love’s ecstasy

I thank the GOD for giving me a
Wonderful gift
Cause without Him life would be empty
And without you everything would be blue

So now that you’re near
I never wanna let go
I love you
Please say you love me too.

this… whatever you wanna call it

is really for y**** or ri****

heheh…

insane moments….

love doesnt hurt… what hurts is that you love somebody that doesnt love you back=(

why do you have to be so nice, why do you have to be so sweet, why do i have to fall for you…

loving someone isn’t easy, you have to look around and see if your hurting someone else like… your friends… the past of the one you love today…. haaay!! buhay!!!! kainis!!! hindi pa pedeng kalimutan na lang after everything??? i mean there’s nothing wrong if your just friends?!!! right?!! but i really think im insane… falling for him is like stabbing my friends at the back!!! waaaaaaaaaahhh!!!!!!!! ive been doing this mistake twice!!!! always havin a conflict with my friends when it comes to love…. hay…i cant do anything right today…. baka meron akong lovenat!!! whahahahahahhh!!!! kelangan ko ng kisspirin ahihihi…. just kiddin!!!

loving someone doesnt give you a license to own them, they just give you the right to treat them with care… they can leave you whenever they want…. how sad…>>>>DRAMA!!!

when someone wakes you up in the middle of the night…

i woke up last nyt coz someone called me SA CELFONE….. 1:30 in the morning ahihihih

panget: hello kitkat!!!
kitkat: hi!! bakit ka naman tumawag ng madaling araw baliw ka talagang matanda ka!!

tapos nagkulitan na kaming dalawa katabi ko pa si mommy sa bed buti na lang pagod kaya hindi nagising… tapos nung mejo half awake si mama kala niya nanaginip ako na may kausap ako ahahhahahaah….

sya palagi umuubos ng load ko asar nga eh hehehe… pero kase siya lang naman nagrereply eheheh… my celfone is filled with quotes and sweet messages coz of him hehehehe… wala lang share ko lang ala talga ako magawa….

we talked to each other for 2 hours then he confessed something hehehe…..

nirecord ko kaya kanina narinig ni achi lahat whahaha….

geh po next tym na lang ulit byebye….

the good thing about being a filipino

it was like a joyride, funny thing was i didn’t enjoy it….

may19-21

we left for bataan at 5 o clock in the morning,my dad picked me up at our house in laguna with my (half) lil’ sis. it wasn’t long till i fell asleep inside the car. we stoppped at a gas station and ate hotdogs (the usual thing). we arrived on our destination by 1 pm hehehe… what i did there … well nothing really just visited my grandparents.

may22

2:35 in the morning we are gonna leave to visit our relatives at calauan laguna, but we still have to fetch my tita at tagaytay. we also went to a place far from noise, made by the urban world… the place was called “field of faith” a place were you can meditate and pray solemnly to GOD .walking to the path were we should follow i bout the things i received from HIM everyday and just realized how thankful i am to know HIM and have all this blessing ,i prayed right after i reached the chapel ….and the rest is history… (no need for you to know) hehehe … by the end of the day we left there by 7 in the evening and arrived in cavite at 11 iwas suppose to go home by that time but my dad said he’s really tired and is just going to bring me home the next day… (my tita actually offered to be the one to do that but then again pride stood up and said “hindi na ako na lang bukas basta nandon ka na sa bahay nio ng bago mag 8” eksakto nga!! galing dba?!!! 7:50 nandun na ko sa bahay yun nga lang late na ko sa meeting by the time i get myself fixed ) which is 16 the day of our covenant in yfc at 8 o clock in the morning!!! good thing were filipinos the program started at 10 hehehehe… the meeting ended at 5 pm.we went to the church (i was with keni and morgan) to help in fixing the flowers to be offered to mama mary (hermana xe ako kung hindi ka relihiyoso hindi mo talga alam yun!!* dictionary please * ahihihi) after that i practiced our song for the concert on may 28 (i told you singing is my frustration hehehhe) then went home for a while, changed my clothes and went back to the church to meet them there coz we were incharge to find a reyna for every village. (reyna*: mga babaeng kinukuha o nagpriprisinta na irepresent ang kanilang village para sa sagala o mayuhan parang prosisyon ng mga magaagandang babae…) i went home by 9 coz i promised my mom i would i went to bed by12 midnight and woke up 5:30 in the morning coz somebody woke me up!!!! hehehe till here i was just bored so i forced to write this thing and coz… my kuya encouraged me to right more often so he would design my blog cool heh?! and is up to me to update it heheh….

love my family always…=)

hapiness eating monster

Tonight as the shadow of depression
Eats my envious soul
My life is being changed to it’s even
Before gloomy days

The stars in the sky
In the valley of loneliness
Is the only hope I see
As each passing day gets worst
And my faith gets lost

Soon there will be a moment
When I can see myself wanting to free it all
The pain I am feeling right now
By ending my life and
Become a desperate ghost

But what benefit will I get
If surrender myself to this
Happiness eating monster
The devils will laugh
And angels will cry
For they can never replace
This beautiful soul that ended her life

And I ask
Will there still be hope
If everything is lost and what’s left
Are questions that only the savior above
Could answer

I can’t understand the meaning of my life
If I was born to suffer or
Born for no reason
Well I guess many of us feel that way
I just wish I didn’t have to.

And the melancholy that envelopes me
Is putting a hole in my even before broken heart
Tearing it apart
Breaking it in tiny little pieces
Like humpty dumpty’s broken parts

Though this is what I feel
envy encourages me to bring out the best in me
To shield my heart from pity and sorrow
So that in years it will turn into a cold and stoned heart
Made by this cruel world and
Needed by unpredictable changes
For necessity calls and my scruples talks

summer and crazy things

I’m having fun doing crazy things this summer with my friends and relatives spending my time with them like there’s no tomorrow…. Hehehe… always thought I would be bored when summer comes like most of the time. I’m just inside our house sleeping ,eating, watching tv, taking care of my pets, cooking, and waiting for my mom ate my kuia (used to be) … alone aheheh… but now I can’t fix my schedule properly… i was surprised that my april calendar schedule was full… heheheh… for the first time in history… but maybe I also had a part why a have a lot of things to do coz I really planned to make the most of this summer cause I know next year I would be busy fixing things… as a college student… I HOPE… I remembered one of my mom’s sis talking to me on the phone helping me with the course I should pick and encouraging me to study hard for my upcoming exams, she really wants me to past UP-manila (I really HOPE I WOULD) after that she talked to me heart to heart and what she told me made my heart melt…so flattering yet too far to reach, her expectations are too high that I think I can’t make it there and fail to make my mom and her proud of me… but then again … there is no harm in trying so I decided to be serious with my studies … wishing’ I could keep my focus in in my goals… the heck with boys!!! They always make me cry ahahahahah!!!! It would take another century for me to have a new boyfriend after what happened … but like what they always say boys will be boys… so im just gonna forgive and forget and move on with my life.Damn so hard to be b-e-a-U-tiful ahahahaah just kiddin well got to go.. still have things to do… just dropped by my blog newei

I WANNA THANK MY KUYA FOR HELPIN ME FIX MY BLOG, HE’S REALLY ONE HELL OF A PROGRAMMER OR WHATEVER YOU WANNA CALL IT… heheheh.. love my family… always