another day… of blues and grays

I’m waiting for you

If only you can hear me whisper your name
If only you can feel my love for you
If only you can feel my pain
now that you’re miles away
I’ll wait for you to come back

I walk in the busy streets of the city
think only of you
wishing that you’re walking with me
I eat alone in the cafe
imagining that we share the same meal
whenever I pass by your place
I pray that I could have
a glimpse of you
I’m still waiting, it’s been months
but I still am

since the night we danced
you’re like glue stuck into my mind
you’re always in my dreams at night
and the words that you told me
I still can’t forget… I hope it’s true
coz I’m here, I’m waiting and
still waiting

The wind will whisper my songs to you
the sun will make you feel of my love
the stars will tell you I’m here
The moon will remind you of the last night
we held each other’s hand
till the day you tell me to stop loving you
I’ll be here, waiting hoping, wishing
to see your smile… again…

math time… composition

If only you know just how I feel

the emptiness in me is left unspoken
my love for you that can never be broken
if you would only know
how much I love you
our world would change
and we would forever be engaged
your smile is warm as the yellow daffodils
that colors my field of happiness
your hand that held mine
is an angel’s touch holding me tight
the song that played when we first danced
is still playing in my heart’s command
you are my love my one and only
If only the wind could whisper my words.
still in the midst of unrevealed emotions
I keep your memories in my soul’s safe keeping
even if it was a week or two understanding
I will forever cherish those days
that I can have a glance of you
and now that you’re far away
and we’re going seperate ways
I hope somedat we would meet in heaven
and confess my love… and
I hope it would not be too late

yiheee… ahahahaaha… hehhehehe…

when you least expect…. you will get surprised!

a start of a simple day that went very ummm… how do I say this???? ummm… really! surprising…. hahaahahh…. ironic but when you least expect things…. they just happen…

last saturday was a great day for me… I woke up and started my routine… then went out in flip flops (even though I know that it’s not allowed) I was just too lazy to change hehehe… I went to baclaran church as what I always do every saturday… like a devotion, something like that… anyway after that went to school and while I was walking in the walk way I was wondering where I would go if the guard won’t allow me to enter… unfortunately when I reached the gate… the guard allowed me to enter… hahahaha… after class, I went to vito cruz to meet nicole (cause later that day I invited her to join me and my mom in divisoria). unexpectedly I saw my Highschool friend, peets. (usually call him pare) we had a chat… until we were seated in one of the bench in UM and we saw another friend of mine, lucky (mommy lucky to be exact) with her sister. they were waiting for daddy adel hehehehe… I was seated near pare when someone called me and to my shock it was my kuya’s HS friends with my BROTHER! grrr!! I didn’t know how to react until I said something stupid… “kuya bestfriend ko siya!” while pointing to peter hahaah… they were all laughing at me and teasing me… sabi ni kuya “wait dyan ka lang! wag ka aalis! may kukunin lang kami sa taas!(3rd flr) dyan ka lang! then after that my hand was shaking for no reason, pare on the other hand was also laughing at me hehehe… tapos bumaba na ulit sila kuya he asked why I was there and told him everything about the divi thing hehehe… good thing he didn’t get mad… but actually I think that’s a bad sign heheheh… he usually has questions for everything… hahahaah…

yun lang… gusto ko lang i-share hahahah….. wala akong masabihan haahahah…

what do you do when you’re left out and you have nothing to do….

I’m here alone in my aunt’s crib… I was really suppose to be at colegio san agustin binan… but I’m not… and it makes me sad, gloomy and unhappy… hahaaha… redundant…

tonight they’re all enjoying the small reunion in school. to bad I can’t come I have my reasons and I already had my decision. but still it bothers me that the decision I made was to stay here in paranaque.. chatting, while they are all laughing and sharing stories… just to the thought of them greeting and hugging each other (as what we GIRLS used to do back in Highschool) makes me cry… hoping that I have a ability to be with them while I’m here in our abode.

ironic, but one of my reasons why i didn’t attend the school event was because i still have to do some props and stuff for our little play in NSTP class (which is tommorow) but I’m still here typing stupid matters of my life… I hate it when I get sad… I seem to have this, things in me that makes me poetic or prosaic and when I do… I have to type out my feelings like what I’m doing right now… that’s why I don’t have enough energy to do what I have to do. ( i’m starting to be annoying am I?) oh well maybe life is like that… you choose, you decide.. like what the priest last sunday said… “your first choice is your best choice” since last week I already ahd my decision not to go tonight… but I never thought I have to suffer the consequences… (sight). oh well….