Another once in a lifetime thing is happening on friday and things get a little slow for us nursing students, which is good since we’ve been working like robots with no proper sleeping habits like 2-3 hours of sleep is already rejuvinating.
I’ve been under this organization at school since the 2nd semester of 2nd year when I unintentionally took the exam to get in, next thing I know I was being interviewed by my superiors and after that we were taken to baguio for a journalism conference. It was fun being with the people in that group, the bonding, A LOT of singing and a little dancing, pop-up debates (usually initiated by bryan), philosophical thinking on how cruel at the same time happy life is and everyday conrversations that became an almost everyday routine.
The small talks is starting to be like heroine, you can’t get enough of it, like something in you tells you to have more everyday (haven’t taken them but that’s how they descrivbe the drug). Its good to have some people to converse with about everything under the sun; love, studies, morality, gender inequality, and other stuff that gets the nerves working like hell. You have to state your opinion every now and then, laugh when someone cracks a joke or even get sad when reality bites. Earlier today, we were dismissed ahead of time and I was really relieved to go home with the sun still up. But as I was trying to leave the building I saw my batch mates and they told me we still have singing lessons for the ceremony on Friday. Dismayed, I went back to the office in the intention of leaving my things so I can attend the practice, but like magnet I was pulled on staying in the office and chat with my friends till the practice is over (I couldn’t sneak out because I’m afraid to get caught not attending).
I saw dom eating kerrimo ( 2 in 1 snack composed of softdrinks and bite size goodies) thrilled to see that the store where he bought the stuff re-opened, I had them accompany me in buying it. On our way to the cafeteria the repartee started and as usual, I was on the mood to fight the three of them back. dom, noli jerome and me (the only girl) went to buy our merienda. While waiting for our orders to be served we talked about how one of them has a “greener” mind than the other, how dom always laughs when someone in the office talks about something he thinks has another meaning. Weird but its one of our typical topics. When we got our food, we went back and walked the easier path going back to the fourth floor where the office resides. Jerome entered the room first and to our surprise he went out again saying that bryan and erickson is having an “intimate discussion” and we wouldn’t want to disturb them, so we opened the veranda.
The veranda, one of the scenic places in the campus overlooking the LRT station, an old gov’t building next to a wide open space that used to be a parking lot, tall buildings and the basketball court beneath us. But the best part is the sky, which never seize to amaze me everytime we opened the door like its an entrance to a secret sacred place. At an instant the palaver started with noli telling some stories and the three of us listened, we had our turns in telling our own stories with whatever one wants to share or come up with, spontaneous barking that’s how I can describe it. When someone is talking somebody else has to have a comment on that and it would lead to another topic which another person would react to that will lead to another topic and therefore an endless cycle of intellectual nonsense chats. That’s how our life is almost everyday, after cramming for days or hours just to create one page of formed sentences from interviews and gathered data, we talk and talk until someone says “tara uwi na tayo” then everybody would leave and separate paths in the street of San Marcelino.
At the end of the day I end up smiling for a reason I barely understand, like happiness came from releasing the stress I had that day, remembering my past and sharing my thoughts and ideas and to the people I’m starting to treasure. Now as I walk home alone, I never feel the need to hold somebody’s hand anymore just to know I’m secure, because I’m starting to realize I am now FIXED.