mukmok sa sulok

alipin ng katahimikan
sa mundong walang muang
nakatingala sa ulap
nababalot sa kawalan
nagmumukmok sa walang hanggan

ano’t walang masabi
bakit naging pipi
dati’y parang banda
na umaarangkada
ngayo’y isang banda
nakakulong sa beranda

munting tinig ko’y nawala
naglahong parang bula
nakakulong sa mundong mangmang
puno ng pasakit at kawalanghiyaan

saan matatamo ang katahimikang nais
kung ang lawa’y ko’y napanis
pano ko isusumbat na “tama na! sobra na!
kung ang tanging masambit ay….
bahala na… sh*t

yan ang ginagawa ng mga taong walang magawa habang nasa loob ng library at kunyaring nagrereview para sa asignaturang kemika… wag niyo akong sisihin kung medyo malalim itong aking naisulat… nahawa lamang po… ipagpaumanhin…

Guilty as charged

okay so it’s not my fault… but I still feel guilty and I feel the weather is punishing me for not going to laguna knowing….. that it’s my moms birthday today.

I woke up late this morning at around 5:15 am, this pass few days I usually wake up around 3 in the morning straight to the computer to do my thing… finish my reports in chemistry. Chemistry subject has really been a pain on my neck lately, I mean with all the things that I have to to do (memorize formulas, mix solutions, wash testtubes every experiments, read very THICK books etc. etc) I can’t seem to know which should go first. while having breakfast I had a bit sermon from my aunt which for me is inappropriate coz I’m doing everything that I can to meet her standards, but still it isn’t enough. left the house around 6am for my LTS class. it’s the 26th of august and it’s my mom’s birthday and I was suppose to go to his office until my kuya had a change of plans….

mIni tutOr minEe Moe

went to my kuya’s place after class but before I knew it he was not yet ready to go and got disappointed when I heard that we’re not going to meet my sister… I was planning we could have some kind of a family get together.. things that a family usually do, eat together take pictures together, laugh and tease each other… I badly miss those days…. *tear drop*. my brother’s girlfriend taught me a lesson in chemistry that I had trouble with heheeh.. good thing she’s also a nursing student 2 years ahead of me. after that we went to makati and ate at North Park heheeh… it was my first time to eat there. the food was great and the three of us had a great time… I just wish my mom and sister was there. =(

it’s surprising how things could not go the way you planned it, things that was suppose to be happy turned sad. unfortunately for me… this is the first time I have never glanced at my mom’s face on her birthday… my heart sinks of the thought that my mom would sleep alone in bed tonight… not even given the chance to see one of her three kids… I wish I could make it up to her…

long lost words

its been months? since my last post o here goes nothing

our prelim exam ended two weeks ago and I already saw my grades, sh*t I have a line of 7 grade, ironic but I didn’t expected my grade to be that low… well I thought that I was gonna have 80, 81 or something like that… but i didn’t expected that. maybe I was too confident that I can pass all my subjects… haay… I was hoping to be in the dean’s list. well maybe it’s not yet my time and I still have to lift a hundred sack of rice just be able to get into that list… may kuya showed me something in his blog well if you wanna see it check this out (http://eehgow.cureless.net/) and see how this world can be a bit strange.

I’m having difficulty adjusting with my new set of friends. They’re cool, nice and all but they seem to be a bit too wild… or I’m just beginning to be too sensitive. Some of the girls have little fights that they gossip behind eahc other’s back sometimes, the guys are great but they’re irritating when they tease me.

grrr… I don’t know what to say anymore… I ran out of stories maybe I could share it with you next time but not now… I’m really not in the mood for a long entry. chow!

I peeked in the jeepney window and there, in the midst of pollution,problems,hard-working people that doesn’t know how to stop and appreciate their surroundings, in the city that is always awake… painted in the sky was God’s majesty… his great paint brush stroke the clouds with orange and yellow sunset… coloring the horizon of gray and white… giving people hope for another tomorrow….